I was never really interested in Mayumi until Paul moved into Liberty House, and made a move on her. I never wanted to give Fiona Honor, until Garnet started doing so. It wasn't my desire being activated in either case... you could say I was being driven by the desire of the Other.
I never had any real desire to move to Japan until I was seduced by the pseudo-sexual visions provided to me by Kellie M. It was not my desire either to move to Edogawa Ward, I sort of felt compelled to do it. I acted in a masochistic manner to both Mr Kobayashi and Umesh. For the masochist, orgasm equals death. Christine Chubbuck could have been a female masochist. When pressured by her news editor to sensationalize her news reports, she tried to act as his Objet Petit a, by becoming more sensational than the sensational... and shot herself on air.